I remember always wanting to make more money in my career. Every couple of years earning more money and finding ways to capitalize on my current position was my ultimate goal.
There’s nothing wrong with wanting to achieve in life however chasing money became fulfilling in many ways until the recession hit home. I was smart enough to find a nicely paying base pay job that came with quarterly bonuses. However, I never contemplated a major shift in the economy at least not anytime soon.
Needless to say, I finally appreciate each penny earned realizing that everyday is a blessings to receive a paycheck. I applaud my Father for teaching me the importance of saving and take his words of wisdom seriously. I also know more now then ever that prayer is powerful.
Savings or not there were times it felt like I was about lose it when my bonus check was so pathetic I almost vomited!
What in the hell is this?!! What am I going to do with this?!?! All that hard work just got pushed back 10 years and I had nothing to do with the economic crimes created that now I am paying for.
This guy who is preparing my food will not look at me while I am trying to explain how I want my food prepared.
He appears to be annoyed and tunes me out BUT aren’t I paying for that? My voice travels and I am far from being considered soft spoken but he continues to ignore me. OK! Maybe he was daydreaming who cares! I am the customer pay attention…is that being a tad bit demanding? Gee whiz! Body language and vibes is something that I have the ability to read and feel the vibrations very well.
He was having a bad day and did not feel like being nice to me period…so why not stay home? Bills to pay right I get it but the business suffers if I decide to not return. Who else is he kicking this negative crap to?
In the end, he comes back and asks “What is it that you want on your bagel?” I wanted to say, “If you were listening to me the first time you would know but you chose to ignore me instead.”
Oh no! I dare not say that then I would be labeled “The Angry Black Woman”. Besides repeating what I wanted requires less energy. You never know who is watching so keeping my cool is a must.
With each day I have to practice great care which requires me to walk on eggshells that I swore would never happen. One thing for certain, it sure isn’t easy being not only a woman in today’s society but top that off with being Black and you have double the problems.
Indeed we have many rights that were not available however we also have folks who have the same mindset as those that lived in the 50’s.
I have personally experienced racism and being stereotyped on a daily basis and it’s rather exhausting to say the least. Every day, it seems my buttons are pushed to get a rise out of me that is truly expected based on my ethnicity. “Ok, Patrice it’s time to prove them all wrong based on your actions or response.” I will admit sometimes I just say fug it and go HAM on whoever crosses me wrong that day that sadly makes me feel kind of good for a few seconds…then I am holding my head down in shame.
Never let anyone take you out of character young lady no matter what the situation is! That is a hard rule to follow….
After a shower or bath try using a blow dryer on the “COOL SETTING” to rid your hello kitty of excessive moister that the towel can’t seem to take away. This will help prevent yeast infections and minimize odor. Stagnant water anywhere is just not good. Go ahead prop that leg up and cool blow dry your worries away! Part those buttcheeks too!
Lightly glaze your legs and underarms with conditioner
Use a nice razor preferably not the cheap ones since they can cause nasty cuts. *** I love Venus Razors
Make sure your hands are not covered with conditioner before you start shaving 🙂
Shave as usual but you must rinse the razor in COLD water! Honest you will get the closest best shave ever!
Your legs will feel smooth as a baby’s bottom. Hot water or warm makes the razor soft and it expands whereas cold water makes it contract therefore it remains sharp.
I believed that being afraid was never an option for me. Well, good horror movies scare the heck out of me .
Finally, I came to the conclusion that being a straight up punk, coward or whatever you call a person that allows themselves to be their worst enemy when it comes to attempting success is exactly who I am.
Being afraid to fail is a huge obstacle for me and why should I care whose watching? Well, I care since people are the worst critics when you try and fail miserably. Developing a tough skin and an attitude that oozes I don’t give a rats arse what anyone thinks may give me enough cohunes to move forward. Ha!
Frankly, the mere fact that my existence here on earth isn’t forever should be enough fuel to get me going eliminating all fear. However, it seems that ruining your credibility is a far more easily attained then building a positive reputation. It’s sort of like your credit score which takes days to trash to hell and years to rebuild.
Fear is surely wrapped up tightly with procrastination which is the devil himself! If only I just dug in and took a chance rather than choosing to wait until the timing was right. Oh my! The waiting game, shame on me, the biggest fluke ever like, when is the PERFECT time? However, there are some situations like wanting to make someone your girlfriend when she’s married where timing is of essence. Divorce should occur first but who does that nowadays they just jump in the sheets.
We are more willing to move forward with self-destructive actions and become an utter success. The time and energy we put into silly things that end up causing devastation to ourselves and others could be easily redirected towards more enlightening and positive quests. Oh well, human nature is a bust.