To God be the glory! I am now cancer free and still amazed at how far I have come.
I am now in the reconstructive phase after having a bilateral mastectomy. New boobs in the making and it was not for vanity. Cancer robbed me of so many things and my femininity is one. The things like my nails, toes, hair and especially my breast!
I have been thinking of two people that were in my life that I took for granted like Nicole and Will and I miss them so much. I wonder if they are reading my blog and curse them for not reaching out to me! If you are reading my blog please know that I love you both and friends fight but that does not mean you give up. Nicole promised that we would never stop being friends no matter what. But who keeps promises anyway these days?
Cancer makes you see life so differently and I appreciate things so much more now. I had triple negative breast cancer and this type is VERY aggressive. The only way I overcame this is by having a positive attitude, prayer, faith and truly believing that this was not the end. Now more than ever I want to give back to those who are now fighting cancer. I am not exactly sure how to go about this yet. One thing for sure financial support is needed as well as emotional support in a major way. It is so easy to fall into deep depression and give up when you feel like you are alone. The strange part about it all is no matter if you have 100 people in your corner you are the only one that has to fight the battle.
My Dad told me that he too is going through this all with me whether I believe it or not. That meant so much to me. He told me that he feels my pain and I believe that. I am truly grateful and thank God every single day! Life is so beautiful if you take the time out to focus on the good and the things you have control over. Do not waste your time on the things in life you have no control over give it to God! I don’t have to know you personally care about you. Remember that we need more love in this world. If you can not support a person financially support them emotionally. When I hear that someone has to go through chemo my heart cries for them. Please take care of yourself and get your cancer screening done annually because your life depends on it.
My biggest fear is that cancer will return and that thought has to be buried and never dug back up! Reality is not always yours…For now, I will celebrate life and being a “new normal” since I will never be the same. The change is good and has made me stronger in so many ways. If God was trying to get my attention he sure did the job.