Begging for Love…

There is nothing more humiliating than begging for someone to love me. You can not give your love to just anyone. Everyone isn’t worthy to enter your temple or your life!

If a person’s only purpose is sex then you are definitely in for a disappointment. Getting to know each other and becoming friends first is important unless it just happens to be love at first sight.  Watch out for predators, users and people who pretend to love you because of ulterior motives.

The one thing I have learned is men experience the same hurt as I have. We somehow end of with the right wrong person. I know, it sounds crazy, right? Well, you think the person is right for you when they are so wrong for you in many ways. We usually find out this in days, months or sadly years!

If a person does not want to be with you there is nothing you can do to change their mind or heart no matter how much you compromise yourself. The only result you will have is a broken heart. We sometimes imagine what could be when it will never be no matter how hard we wish, pray and hope with all our might. I can cry, scream and yell and all they will hear is silence. My heart could be broken and I imagine them ripping my heart out of my chest and throwing it on the ground to crush it.

I have so much love to give to the right person. Sometimes, I think my love is too big and maybe too much for the average Joe. Maybe my love scared men in my past off because it comes from the depth of my soul. The only unconditional love and everlasting love comes from my children, my parents, and God.

I keep praying and hoping that one day God will send me a man to love me in every possible way. I want the kind of love that we enjoy the very essence of our existence.

The kind of love that we can’t keep our hands off each other. The kind of love that we only see beauty in us and no one is more perfect then we are to each other. The kind of love that we want to spend all the time we have in the world together. The kind of love that we look into each other’s eyes and get lost in love. The kind of love that feels like soft sensual volts of electricity is traveling through my body when he touches me. The kind of love that God is the foundation of.

In the meantime, I will focus on loving those who love me and learning to love myself more and more with every passing day.  The unconditional love of a man is just not in the cards for me and I have accepted that.

I want the kind of love I don’t have to beg for…





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