My Thoughts

When my mind seemed to never want to rest and sleep was a distant pleasure. I constantly prayed to God for sleep until I finally entered into what I call a limbo of deep rest. Some nights I slept very well but those nights were rare and cherished.

I have so many thoughts running through my head that it can be overwhelming. Chemo kills cancer and it was slowly killing me too. My life was as if I was at a crap game rolling the dice every time I had chemo hoping for a lucky 7. Through all this, I never had disdain for God but grew closer to him.

My journey has begun to finally start working towards my Master’s in Mangement Specialization Project Management. It has taken exactly seven long years to stop making excuses. Cancer indeed was a dreadful excuse to not pursue my degree with chemo and all the other hurdles that come with it. All of my pathetic excuses were all used up and cancer was not going to be a reason for me to not pursue my Master’s.

There were times I wanted to quit and it was just the first semester! Well, classes start again in February and I passed with a “B” by the grace of God and my faith. I was relentless and would not give up even when the voice of defeat whispered: “this is not a good time, you are fighting cancer right now”. The funny thing about timing in my life, there is never a good time and I must execute. When I was diagnosed with breast cancer my life was turned upside down. Death seemed to be knocking at my front door and I felt the ice cold breeze that pierced my soul. But I decided to fight and when I felt weak I prayed. I am fighting the good fight for the rest of my life and living life making no excuses.

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